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Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Green Demon & Purple Demon

[Japan has a moral education fairy tale, called "Red Demon and Blue Demon", wherein blue demon follows the advice of red demon to make friends with village children, which leads to red demon leaving forever so he won't scare the kids. It is a dumb story, and it also is a very poor moral story, as it seems to dissuade students from communicating with their friends. So, I rewrote the story (to a higher level of English, but) with a better ending, supporting the value of friendship, and the two demons become radical rockstars.]


GREEN DEMON & PURPLE DEMON
by Brent Danley Jones


            Once upon a time Green Demon lived in the city of Shimokitazawa. Green Demon wanted to be a famous rockstar drummer. So he put a board in front of his live house. He wrote the words, `I`m a radical drummer! Please come and listen!` But everyone was afraid of him so no one came in, because he was a scary demon and his ticket price was too high. He felt angry and finally took the board away.
             One day, Purple Demon came to Green Demon`s house. He said, `Do you really want to be a famous drummer?` Green Demon said, `Yes, I do!` Purple Demon agreed with him and said, `Okay, you need to start a band. I am a great guitarist. Together, we will be the Toxic Brothers!` Green Demon liked Purple Demon`s idea and said, `That`s a great idea! We may have an awesome time!` Then they went down to the village station to perform a street live.
             Lots of people were at the station. Suddenly, Green Demon and Purple Demon came. They shouted, `We are the Toxic Brothers! We`ll rock your world!` The people were excited and shouted, `Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!` with their hands in the air. Then, Green Demon sang: `When you`re lost, and you don`t know what to do, listen to your demon heart, and let the music guide you!` Green Demon hit the drums like crazy and Purple Demon played like his hands were on fire. Everyone shouted, `Yaaaaaaaay!`
The people cheered, `Thank you for your awesome performance! You are radical dudes. We want to go to your live house.` Green Demon`s live house became very popular and the Toxic Brothers were the most famous band in the local indie scene.
A few years later, Green Demon went to Purple Demon`s apartment to thank him. Green Demon found a letter on the door:

`Hey Green Demon,
I`m glad you are a famous rockstar now. I want to play with you again, but I need to become a more powerful guitarist. I will go far away into the mountains to practice with the Guitar God and find myself. I will always be your friend.
Rock on,
Purple Demon.

Green Demon couldn`t believe it. He made a new band called The Purple Hearts and they also became very famous. Green Demon never forgot the power of music thanks to Purple Demon.

A few years later, Green Demon still did not forget about his long lost friend. He wanted to tell Purple Demon that he didn`t need to be better, because he was already a very powerful guitarist that had all the Toxic Brothers needed to be a radical band. Green Demon decided to follow Purple Demon into the mountains to tell him that the power of music was more important to him than how well someone can play guitar.
When Green Demon got to the top of the mountain, he was amazed by what he saw. Purple Demon was playing guitar… in a big rock battle with the Guitar God! Purple Demon was having a hard time. Green Demon wanted to help. He quickly made a drumset from sticks, stones, and a mountain goat. He played like crazy, supporting Purple Demon. Because they had always been best friends, they matched each other perfectly and played and played and kept playing with awesome power until the Guitar God exploded in a brilliant pyrotechnics display. It was the greatest song in the world, even though no one was there to see it but the two demons.
`We did it! We did it!` Purple Demon said. He was so happy that he jumped up and down. But Green Demon went over and hit him! `Ow! Why would you do that?`
`What a fool you are! You could have been killed by the Guitar God`s groovy high voltage music. I know you wanted to be stronger, but you should have told me, your best friend, about your plans. I could have come to practice here with you. You taught me the power of music, but also you taught me the power of friendship. If there is anything more important than music, it is believing in your friends!`
Purple Demon was crying. He said `You’re right, music is radical, but playing music with your friends is the most awesome.`
`Right on dude!`
Green Demon and Purple Demon went back down the mountain and started a new band, DEMON800, and played a lot of radical music as friends forever and ever.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Anti-Humor Jokes & Post-Modern Internet Rose Poems

JOKES:


Q. What did the Farmer say when he lost his Tractor?
A. "Where the hell is my Tractor?"

Q. What smells like blue paint but looks like red paint?
A. Red paint

Q. What's brown and sticky?
A. a stick.

The little boy walks into a classroom and says "poop-poop-poop, you're poop-poopy pants!".
Teacher says don't say that.
The little boy says "okay, sorry".

    So a guy walks into a bar,
he drinks there every day,
it's slowly destroying his family.

So this guy walks into a bar, orders some food and eats it, shoots the bartender, then leaves like nothing happened.
So another patron of the bar was like "well what the fuck was that?!" and another patron tells him, oh he's a panda bear, he eats shoots and leaves.

Q. If you're paddling upstream in a canoe and a wheel falls off, how many pancakes fit in a doghouse?
A. None! Ice cream doesn't have bones!





POEMS:

Roses are red...
Violets are blue...
In Soviet Russia,
poem writes you

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
This line doesn't rhyme,
And neither does this one

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I can't get a girl,
But I guess you'll do.

I whistled for a cab,
and when it came near,
the license said fresh,
it had dice in the mirror

Pokeballs are red
Great balls are blue
Just like I chose my charmander
Now I choose you!

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Tulips are pink
And sometimes yellow

Mario is red
Sonic is blue
Will you please be
My Player 2

Roses are red
Violets are blue
All of my base
Are belong to you

Roses are grey
Violets are grey
Everything's grey
I'm a dog

roses are red,
violets are purple
shit
nothing rhymes with purple

roses are red
oranges are orange
fuck
missed here again too


Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Tekkids: The Beginning



    It would be a long be a long walk.
The ruddy, muddy path before them curved and turned near through the towering husks of scorched trees, burned but not forgotten, watching them as they passed quiet beneath their ashen skeletons. A breeze picked up, blowing a grey, dead snow down as they trudged along, wary and weary, looking for a place to camp before the coming night.
Somewhere in the distance something like a bird or paca was bleating a message in shrill squawks, and it sounds like "get out, get out, get out." There's not a single welcoming quality to the forest of Fen, leaving was already the plan, to make it to some city and see what was left of the sky again, even one ringed with fire would be better than this dull grey overcast of arboreal shells. After last night, she was exhausted, and plodded forward hardly able to keep a consistent thought in her head. That was fine though. She didn't want to.
They just got out of another altercation, one that left Rosy with bruises all down her arms with a bad burn on her shoulder, and Kehl… he was fighting back another round of nausea. It couldn't keep on going like this, something was going to break that couldn't get fixed.
While the rope had tightened around Rosy's neck, she'd still stayed conscious enough to hear the mention of a city on the other side of the diseased woods. Lodestone. She chanted the name over and over in her mind’s voice, Lodestone, Lodestone, Lodestone. Maybe if they made it there, discovered more information about what was happening in the ongoing conflict, maybe then they could find a cure.
...But then where would they go?

+++

From the onset of the night before, after they left the small post for trading caravans, it didn't take long until their 'guides' turned out to be the opposite of what was promised. It didn't come at a complete surprise--they'd been half-expecting it since they made it past the crowds and out into the rural reaches of Lemmingstown, when their two new compatriots had an argument over which path to take upon entering the Fen. True guides also traveled slower and with more gear, whereas these seemed to be in a hurry to leave the wagon trains behind. Even then, it was better to travel with someone, anyone, instead of venture out all alone, just the two of them. If anything, it would give extra fodder on the road in case of another monstroid attack.
After barely making it away from the glow of the last campfire, the would-be woodsman were already setting the snare, saying they should make camp away from too many prying eyes so no one would come upon their little group in the night. It wouldn't be the first time things got suspicious quick, someone making a promise and meaning the opposite of what they said. Nowadays everyone seemed desperate. Being a child made no exception in that. How quickly "keep you safe" could mean "attack and sell you" made paranoia the standard mindset to those that wanted to stay alive. Unnervingly, not everyone did want to keep going. Occasionally you’d glance a body’s remains stren among the jagged rocks at the bottom of a cliff. First reaction then was, ‘can I get down there to see if any usable gear might be left?’ Shows the sour reality of how times were changing.
Usually, these poachers of people waited longer to earn trust before springing the trap. Rosy and Kehl had known shackles, but history wasn't going to repeat so soon. Nor would it ever have to, if they were prepared to pay the price.
"Where are we headed?" Rosy asked tracker Allar.
"What? Why you wanta know? We getcha their safe, like we said."
"Yes, thank you, only the Fen stretches quite a distance, doesn't it? I heard tell around the trading post of a big city on the other side, the one down from Snake Lake. I just wanted to know if that was the direction we were heading." Even though she had only begun taking on the transition from kid to girl, she was not clueless or thoughtless as her youth may suggest.
"Yeah? You head about the city, huh? But you ain't been through here before, huh?" Allar fiddled with a knife on a flint stone over a small tinder pile, though no sparks were coming off with the scrapes.
"We haven't been to the other side of Fen, no. But we made it all the way here from quite far away, from North Lea. We're just looking for a bigger place to find something to do."
"Yeah, well I got a bit of bad news," he put the flint stone away, giving up on the fire--or finishing what he was originally intent on doing, "see, Lukus and I hear track the Fen and try to catch them metal beasts what bother travelers. So happens that a couple smaller logtowns up norther are paying more for 'em fresh kilt than the city."
"Oh," putting a bit of despondency in her tone, "we were hoping to reach south."
" . . . "
"But we'll be much, much better off going that way after we get across the Fen. Thank you for your help."
"Mhmm. Now go to sleep kids, gotta a lot to do tomorrow. A lot of walking. Actually probably best not to start a fire, don't want none of them beasts comin' on out tonight, right? Don' you worry, Lukus is a strong guy, he'll stay up a while and watch."
Rosy and Kehl took the cue and began to spread out their thin bedrolls. It used to be on nights like this, with only the darker of the moons showing in the sky, children would stay up and talk about things they'd seen and what they'd see from here, excited about what was out there, and someone would always try to scare younger kids by telling them about some huge black shadow monster just outside the brushpile watching and waiting until they slept. Rosy and Kehl knew better. You didn't talk. You did not draw attention. And you listened.
The one called Allar went after Rosy just as she was laying to test the bedroll placement, silently lashing a tethered cord around her neck. She only got out a squeak before the man's hand was around her mouth, his knee in the small of her back forcing her chest to the ground. "Don't worry. I think we might change plans and head to your big city, Lodestone pays better for live things than dead ones."
The other guide, Lukus, nabbed Kehl in one arm, and Kehl ripped that arm off, a clean break from the shoulder socket. Allar said Lukus wa strong, but he could have never known how much stronger Kehl's Arms were. Rosy didn't have that kind of power, but she still had teeth and sunk them into her assailant's hand. He cried out in pain, but that didn't deter him from making a few more coils in the nylon binding rope now woven around her small body. The cords gripped into her skin through her thick orange fur dress and hurt despite the layers. Allar hadn't noticed the partner slaver, riling on the ground, clutching his own arm in his opposite hand, lost to shock. The man on Rosy kept his hold but lost his nerve when he turned to see what Kehl had done, and it was just then now-dead Lukus's head popped like a blister.
Stripping himself of the heavy teal jacket he always wore, Kehl made for Allar, coming for Rosy. She threw her hair away from her Eye and could see an instant aura of fear, and a deeper peer through his first layer of garments revealed just in time as Allar drove his hand to an inside pocket, "Kehl! He's gotta a shock-stick, watch out!" Kehl stopped his approach short, instead snatching up a round rock that should have been used for their fire pit, launching it through the collar bone and out the back of Allar before he could point the shock-stick and fire. Ligaments plucked like string, the stick fell and went off on hitting the ground, launching a stream of white-blue lightning just past Rosy's head but catching her shoulder, prompting loose a wail of agony.
Without a word Kehl pounced the man, dug his fingers inbetween his ribs and pulled, splitting him from the left of his sternum in two like cracked nut. Rosy tried to yell, to tell him not to use so much power, that he'd push too far, but Kehl was young, temperamental, and didn't yet understand the full effects of what he had on his arms. He only pulled back after Allar had an "O" like shape to his torso. By then, Rosy had squeezed out of her binding to catch Kehl as he stumbled, looking pale. With Eyes to the trees above, he vomited and Rosy rolled him over. "Pushed himself too far", she muttered. Already she could feel his veins growing turgid and his limbs became stiff. There was nothing she could do but lay him down, gather the gear of the two guides-turned-corpses, and lie awake until dawn when Kehl regained consciousness.
You think she'd have been scared. She wasn't. Just sad. And worried. This wasn't the first, second, or third time this happened. She shed a few tears while Kehl couldn't see, frustrated on having to ponder how many more times this would happen. Rosy could only hope it wasn't hopeless.

+++

The glaring moon glowered high in the sky, mid-day and no shadow time, signaling rest. They found a hovel in the recess of a particularly towering fallen ash tree. Rosy pulled out a canteen on a skein of knotted intestine taken from last night's attackers to give Kehl a drink. She went to take a swig herself first before spitting the liquid right back out, her mouth on fire. Rotgrog, as nasty as it was potent, cheapest booze you could buy but only drank by those who truly could not afford something better. Made all the more sense why her people-trapper's from yesterday turned to crime life. Rosy kicked herself for not checking first and trading the contents for water before setting out, but she wanted to depart the gruesome scene before any passerby stumbled on the barbarized bodies. Some may have known those two cadavers, but she doubt they'd be missed. Possibly they were even beyond recognition. Rosy still shuddered to think of what Kehl could do, though at the same time that power became strangely normal. With her companion still reeling in a weakened state now, Rosy had only been able to carry a small amount of the gear she got off the slavers, and a vial of rotgrog was not going to help them through the Fen.
Rosy tried to sit, let her body be at rest, and collect her thoughts like she'd been told to do from time to time. They were still alive (for what it was worth), they had more gear than when they started yesterday (though at a price), and they made some progress through the Fen (but slower than they would if they hadn't been attacked by their guides), and they were on a pretty well-worn path (however they didn't know where it'd go). Okay, thinking wasn't working.
Instead, she put her attention on Kehl. His breathing was labored by a bit, but his Eyes were open and alert. They hadn't spoken all morning. Both knew what the other was thinking, and the conversation they'd have to have, but the two continued mutually delaying that inevitable exchange. A light mist started to fall, and turned out to be nothing more than the ashes from the tops of surrounding trees blowing in the wind, giving the air a heavy stink of stale sulfur. "We should take it easy today. It's not like anywhere else is better than here. Everything's probably even worse," Rosy spoke finally.  Kehl sniffed in through his nose to recall a wet booger on its way out. "Uh-huh. Probably." Rosy looked over to Kehl, who didn't give his eyes back. It made her realize she still had her Eye out, and she made a quick attempt to look natural as she moved her hair in front of it and cupped the rest of her curls behind her ear. She knew her Eye still frightened him, though it couldn't be more than Kehl's Arms frightened her.
Unbuckling the clasp of her pack, she removed the leather straps but let out a quick peal of pain where the shock-stick blast scorched her skin. That got Kehl's attention, asking "you all right?" Rosy more gingerly removed that strap, wincing as she gently rotated it over the skin beneath. "Yes. I'm fine. It's not as bad as stuff before, and I know it'll heal up really quick like it always does." She tried to think positive, like she had been told to do. She shrugged off the hurt, instead reminding herself that they were up another weapon, Allar's shock-stick now in her coat pocket, which gave them an additional method of defense, one that didn't use Kehl's Arms or Rosy's Eye.
"Don't look, Kehl. That reminded me, I should change the bandage on my shoulder. Those stupids at least had sense to carry some medical junk with'em." Before she even took and arm out of the sleeve of her dress Kehl blushed a shade of pink that clashed with the somber color of his jacket. In a strange way she didn't show, it made her happy to see they were both still very much mortalfolk. Kehl feigned disinterest and went to kick at a charred stump while Rosy carefully picked at where blood and blackened skin stuck to the piece of cloth she strapped on in the morning. It hurt, but she was stronger than that familiar feeling of pain. Wadding up new cloth, she taped it down and slung her arm back through her fur dress. The shade of pale, faded orange that colored her one-piece was just like the hue of light bouncing off the moon. She could just make out the beams coming down through the smoky tops of dead standing trees.
"Okay. You can look now. Oh, and come back over here Kehl, I still have some of that ointment we got and you could use it on your Arms." She pulled on the lid of a rubber tub taken from a hipsack. It was greasy to the touch and no matter how much she wiped at it with her pantleg it never got not-sticky. "No, I'm fine, it doesn't hurt. It's fine," Kehl said, still facing the other way and preferring to busy himself with the stump.
It wasn't until Rosy rolled up one of Kehl's sleeve under protest that she saw why he was acting resistant.
"Kehl… this is bad."
"No! It's fine, I said it's fine!"
"It gone to your elbows. Kehl it's already made it to your elbows, and that was just last night. Ten moon-cycles ago it was just getting past your wrists." Now, from finger to forearm, and organic twisting of nano-metal took the place where flesh should be. It was cold to the touch, but looked alive, practically pulsing as Rosy inspected further to see new thin wires beginning to sprout around the joints, along with a new dull blue light shining through a hard-casing just below Kehl's palm.
"Just put the greasy stuff on and leave it alone. It's not so bad."
"You can't do what you did, you can't use so much energy, too much is going to make this spread faster, you know that!"
"Yeah, and then what, we don't even know what happens when it does. Maybe nothing. Maybe it will just stop. Or maybe it'll make us really, really strong and then no one will ever bother us again. And it doesn't matter. That stupid guy, he was hurting you, he had you in ropes and, I didn't want to get captured again, and sold, and end up somewhere where the hurt… hurt you and… "
Kehl began to trail off in tears, but Rosy had sealed off that protective reaction to his crying; it could be a tool just like the ointment. "Don't even. Don't even start to blubber about that. You know--knew--we were never in danger. You freaked out too fast, Kehl. Even if he had me tied up, he never said how he wanted us 'alive' to do whatever with. If those idiots didn't know about what we could do then, all it would take is being patient and waiting for them to go pee or something, then we could have broken out and used a lot less power. I could have scanned them to see what they had and told you that. You can't just keep exploding like that or we're going to run out of time."
"Just shut up about it," Kehl hit her on the shoulder, the one with the burn, not too hard but enough to make her yell out, "see, that hurts and that's because he hurt you! I'll do what I want, I'm not going back to being in a cage again!"
Rosy's tempered flared, "You freaking little jerk, don't touch me! What was that for?" Rosy pushed him back and he stumbled over the burnt stump and fell backwards, no doubt struggling with the increased weight of his Arms, tears still welling in his eyes. Rosy stopped herself then, not saying anything else. She barely slept last night, but had to control her nerves better with him, she couldn't let him get the best of her over this. All things considered, this was out of a place projected by fear.
"I told you I wouldn't *sniff* let anyone *sniff* hurt you and still I *sniff* couldn't get there in time." He stayed on the ground and took a moment to himself as Rosy tried to regain her composition. She needed to remember, Kehl was only a boy of 10, and a sensitive one at that. Even if she was 12, she still had to be the adult.
"Kehl… look at it this way, if this machine infection spreads too far up your arms, well, you won't be able to save me from anything. You'll go crazy, like the kids back from Newton."
"*sniff* I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hit you. It's just… so hard *sniff* sometimes."
"I know," she grabbed his hand, wincing as the cold metal wrapped around hers stronger than Kehl knew he was gripping. She bared that, and helped him up. "I know it is. Just… you have to be really, really careful, okay. Now roll up your sleeves more, you really should have told me earlier."
Kehl sucked in a trail of snot and did as he was told. “I know… you’re right. It is… annoying (Rosy knew that was a quick substitute for the word ‘hurt’) and it makes it feel like my arm won’t move so good.” The woolen glove came off and he rolled up the opposite sleeve. It had spread to same place near his elbow, though this Arm had streaks of dark grey metal alloys that took over for skin, smooth like stone. Underneath the forearm, small levers and a pulley system worked quietly in place of muscle fibers as he continued to raise his sleeve, up the point where skin and meat and bone took back over. It looked like his elbow bend might turn in to some kind of piston mechanism. Rosy wouldn't admit her thought, but she was curious what the machinery would look like once it rounded the elbow, what kind of bio-nano would take the place of shoulder and neck tissue, how the bone would hold against impact and how the rotating motion of complex ball joints would function. Maybe his arm wouldn't move the same way again, and would get stuck turned straight, like a pole with a hammer for a hand. She wouldn't admit to thinking it, but she knew it would happen before too much longer, at this rate. If they kept running into trouble, and needed to use the power in his Arms, it would go that much faster, a seemingly exponential increase. For now, she forced a smile and blew at the tears on Kehl's cheek as she applied the salve. It made him laugh, "Stop! It's cold when you do that."
Rosy finished applying the ointment and backed off, jamming the rubber lid back on the tub as her smile faded. She thought of how one day, if things didn't get better, Kehl might not feel a cold sensation on his cheek anymore. He might not be able to feel anything, anywhere. No, she couldn't do this, couldn't spiral down. She steeled her nerves, "You can't let anyone see your tears, Kehl. You're not weak. You have to be strong all over, not just in your Arms, okay." She turned to walk off, half-intending the dramatic effect, and made for the path through the ashen trees.
Kehl stood, rolled his sleeves down and thrust his metal fingers clumsily into his beige wool gloves, back to looking every bit the young boy he still was, no different than so many other orphaned children attempting survival in a world gone wrong. He took a deep breath, exhaling with an audible puff of air and picking up his chin, "Yes, Rosy. You're right. I'll be strong. I will." Kehl followed after.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

[Tekkids]: Lit Trailer

An excerpt from the beginning of Chapter 2:


    From the onset of the night before, after they left the small post for trading caravans, it didn't take long until their 'guides' turned out to be the opposite of what was promised. It didn't come at a complete surprise--they'd been half-expecting it after they'd gotten past the crowds and out into the rural reaches of Lemmingstown. True guides traveled slower and with more gear. Even then, it was better to travel with someone, anyone, instead of venture out all alone, just the two of them. If anything, it would give extra fodder on the road in case of another attack.

    After barely making it away from the glow of the last campfire their would-be woodsman were already setting the snare to sell them back into slavery, saying they should make camp away from too many prying eyes so no one would come upon their little group in the night. It wouldn't be the first time this happened. Someone making a promise and meaning the opposite of what they said. How quickly "keep you safe" could mean "attack and sell you". Usually, these poachers of people waited longer to earn trust before springing the trap. Rosy and Kehl had known shackles, but history wasn't going to repeat so soon. Nor would it ever have to, if they were prepared to pay the price.

    The one called Allar went after Rosy first, silently lashing a tethered cord around her while she bent to set out her sleeping roll. She only got out a squeak before the man's hand was around her mouth, his knee in the small of her back forcing her to the ground. The other guide of the Fen, Lukus, nabbed Kehl in one arm, and Kehl ripped that arm off, a clean break from the shoulder socket. Rosy didn't have that kind of power, but she still had teeth and sunk them into her assailant's hand. He cried out in pain, but that didn't deter him from making a few more coils in the nylon binding rope now woven around her small body. The cords gripped into her skin through her thick orange fur dress and hurt despite the layers...


And that's all you get! "Wait, did a kid just rip a dude's arm out of its socket?" My, aren't you the observant one. Here's hoping you'll want to know more of these two and what will happen to them. Needless to say, looks like the two guides-turned-slavers won't be main characters.

Thursday, May 22, 2014

Bathroom Time as Near Religious Experiences

And ongoing joke (with myself) of how an extreme sense of relief upon the porcelain alter we so often worship can be described in a similar tone to folks going on about their religious transformations. I apologize in advance for any disgust/shameless giggles reading the following may bring... Without guilt or embarrassment, I bolded the ones that made me chortle.



+==BATHROOM TIME as NEAR RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCES==+

 



"A piece of myself was given."


"I had never felt such release."


"I was humbled by my own creation, from what I made inside of myself that day."


"When the tears came, they were of joy."


"Through the pain, we bear our burden knowing what awaits us when we finish. It is what
we were sent here to do that matters most."


"I'll never go back to what I left behind."


"Such a personal experience, coming from deep within, gave way to something I could finally call my own."


"I felt lighter, yet somehow also more whole."


"Sometimes, I think I hear voices."


"I finally felt like I knew what I was doing, like I knew why I was here, what I was put here to do."


"I was proud, and thought of my family."


"I didn't want to miss my chance."


"I had spent so much of my life doing things all wrong. Then I learned how to wash myself clean of the awful things I'd done."


"The catharsis of moving from a necessary pain into a state of relief beyond words will not be something I soon forget."


"I have sinned, and I shall repent."


"I've never known such peace as when I threw open the door to the shining white room, filled with bright light, and sat upon my own throne."


"It is only through suffering that we learn to appreciate the simple things in life."


"There is nothing left for me to do here."


"I prefer solace when I cleanse myself."


"I felt, for so long, that something was in my way. Now, finally, I'm rid of all that was blocking me and feel a new sense of freedom. My whole body feels lighter."


"I cried… "



"It burned."


"I can never go back."


...any I missed?

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

EDITORIAL: The Internet's Biggest Players are Winning the Information War in some of the Most Curious and Absurd of Ways and We Just Lost Youtube


I recalled a video I favorited on Youtube way back that I wanted to check, and was unpleasantly surprised to find the site had been destroyed by the entity that claimed it.
Youtube has been sucked into the Googleplex and you've all lost another layer of meta-independence if you want a degree of entertainment control back--you can't access your favorites from before without making a playlist, you can't make an effective playlist without a channel, and you can't have a "new" Youtube channel without also creating a Google+ account, and--at the end--you can't have a Google+ account with willingly submitting more of your information, being pulled further into the swelling mass that will culminate into the beast which we'll fight in wars of the future to retrieve who we are.
Now you mayn't favorite GoT clips of Aunt Lysa falling through the Moon Door like a bad 80's horror flick UNLESS you allow yourself to be pulled *just a little bit further* into the untold machinations of the 'Net machine.

--Okay, maybe that's a little extreme, but have you noticed the largely unfavorable changes that have constantly pushed you further and further down the rabbit whole of Net dependence? Add in the how "they" don't seem to care what the community thinks of the demands and changes (FB, iTunes, anything Google touches) made to their highly integrated product. They've moved in unfavorable ways, and really they're just getting started.

Usually I wouldn't be the one to say "Oh noez, the internet got dumberer" but the extent to which megacorps web-based servicers are considering themselves infallible as a necessity of daily life, and the slow yet continuous push they make to force users into going along with their wants (gathering info, linking to unrelated other services, compiling accounts, etc.) has gone from subtle to painfully obvious, and I'm becoming increasing aware of just how invasive a lot of this meta-data has become, and the dare-I-say sci-fi "dystopian" image they're beginning to paint.

Now, I knew that nothing on the web was private, and it was silly for people to ever assume so. I know that data is sold and the government monitors everything, and if you didn't think that before the NSA ousting than you were fooling yourselves with assumed good intentions of these auspicious free servicers.

What is pushing me back in my chair and pulling my hands away from the keyboard now is the extent to which the massive networks like Facebook and Google are eliciting your voluntarily surrender of personal information and acceptance of their methods. A lot of this is timing, having grown up in the generation the series of tubes known as the Internet came about. Anyone with common sense wariness would have hesitated five years ago to put their email into a site, and made dummy accounts just for that reason.
Now, under the guise of security and identity protection, your personal information is forfeit already but they keep asking for more. This permeates to the absurd extent that FB put buttons all over your profile for *your friends* to "ask" that you post more personal information--FB is having "your friends" farm information for them now.

As I mentioned before. A healthy amount of wariness from the generation that began the internet generally keeps you suspicious enough to question the need for this endless data collection.
What worries me most is the generation below us--they want to be entertained, they want to do everything on the net, and ***every big servicer is making it look like giving up personal information constantly (numbers, emails, check-ins) is not just okay, but it's "fun" and you SHOULD do it*** and a lot of folks do.
After Edward Snowden made the NSA basically have to admit to what most folks already assumed it was doing anyway, there was a lot of sabre rattling from older people, but the youngest generation is being sucked right up the information vacuum in exchange for access to HD viewing of music videos. When the younger people think this is normal, they'll question less and less what the entities above them ask of them. This is where we start to slip into the plot origin of most 1990s sci-fi (by the way, a lot of which has been scary accurate over time) and I'm not a conspiracy theorists or even a paranoid kind of guy, I'm just trying to pay attention to the intentions behind what is going on with this massive collection of interlinked individuals.
I'm not the first to notice, but this whole thing is getting suspiciously obvious.

Am I saying "QUIT EVERYTHING, GET OFF THE GRID, BUILD A CABIN IN THE UNCHARTED WOODS OF MONTANA"? No, though that does sound challenging and fun (who's with me?!) though what I will tell you is to watch yourself out there, and try to view the long game that big interest groups are playing with the way you interact in their world. Don't be paranoid, but do be wary of the how and why behind why these new forced necessities are gaining power.

But I'll have a big "I Told You So" ready for when barcode neck tattoos suddenly become a booming new fashion trend.

Now I'm going to wait for a man in a black suit wearing sunglasses during the day to emerge from behind me and ask me to "take a walk" to an undisclosed location. Maybe there'll be puppies!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

NEWS: Religion's Role in Morality by Country

http://www.theatlantic.com/international/archive/2014/03/a-map-of-gods-countries/284469/

Although the Atlantic has a spotty relationship in my book, this brief article citing a study by the Pew Research Center is extremely thought provoking and straightforward. Answering the single question, "Is it necessary to believe in God in order to be a moral person?" you can see clear divides in the world.

My observations: I don't think they asked the question correctly in Japan, where the response would correlate with results as having half the people saying "yes" in a country where I only know of three actively religious people who believe in a single, most likely Western "God" figure. Many people here may believe, for example, that Buddhist teachings offer moral value, but that would not be tied to a centralized god. From this, I believe the answer was either lumped into religion, or they were asking participants in the survey who were more likely "actively religious", otherwise the results would have been less than 5%.

Lol@America, Lol@China. Given their GDP, China is an outlier for saying "God and morals don't matter" and the US is high above the average for people saying "Faith in God is necessary for moral value."

As a person who believes in the self-determinate value of people calibrating their own moral compasses, any country in the purple range depending on an old book, written back when slavery and stoning to death were popular, to determine moral values will be put further down on the list of "Countries I Want To Be In". Anyone else note the irony that countries reporting God as a moral necessity are some of the ones where death by stoning and slavery are still pretty common? Wow, nice job their gods.

tl;dr, most religious texts are violent, antiquated self-help books on morality written thousands of years ago when you or your god could brutally murder someone for being wrong, while still espousing that it's bad to kill people, and folks in many countries still guide their morals from the stories in them.