"I remember
when I used to be really into nostalgia..." --Demetri Martin
Shifting through some old documents, I found a series of quotes I wrote down some six or seven years ago from music I was listening to when I first started college at Willamette. Only band names and a few key lines proved enough for a one-way ticket all aboard the nostalgia train. It's as if I can see a different me through sub-recollection of feelings projected, just through remembering music by Weezer, Tiger Army, Modest Mouse, Cake, and Bad Religion--among others--where just the band name takes my mind back to when I had the words and music floating through my (in)famous headphones (pic, above) constantly.
"If I can
touch it,
I can destroy it,
if it's imaginable
to some degree,
I can become it,
like a hungry
turning vortex that just flickers to existence,
consuming bits and
pieces until I'm finally extinguished"
(Marked, Bad Religion)
Songs tap into mental cavities we sometimes can't feel
genuine in accessing for ourselves, and (good) songs offer an external
perspective to what's internal, granting us another lens through which to see
our feelings and thoughts. With music as a personal experience, we can think of
(good) music as a personified commentary on the self. This is why we constantly
relate ourselves to situational lyrics we hear, it's a way of looking at yourself
through music. Do this enough, and you will build a subconscious image of
yourself through music. Remembering the nostalgia of that 'you' constructed
through music is what I'm talking about.
"Message read
on the bathroom wall says, 'I don't feel at all like I fall'
And we're losing
all touch, losing all touch, building a desert"
(Custom Concern, Modest Mouse)
Deep thoughts filtered through flippant moodiness, it's so readily apparent you can smell it. |
Memories are vessels of success, regret, and randomly
accessed images, all in disorganized snapshots that can render pictures of an
emotion and will be seen under the scrutinizing lens of Hindsight20/20. For
this there is no proper response, though an appreciation of how far you've come
and generating a scope of growth are recommended. If you find something warm,
hold onto it in the moment, past and present.
"As soon as
your born you start dying
So you might as
well have a good time"
I feel like most people don't make time for memories, there
is always something in front of them that needs more focus, and it can be
unsettling to look back. However, doing so is how you continue to know
yourself and gain perspective.
Take time to be you--most people are too scared to.
For a while, stay quiet and still.
Leave the electronic behind, go outside, and walk off the beaten path.
Take time to be you--most people are too scared to.
For a while, stay quiet and still.
Leave the electronic behind, go outside, and walk off the beaten path.
"It burns
like a fire in the night
a glow that rises
and becomes the starlite
Under the trees,
in the night
You'll find it
there
In the space
between heartbeats
Where the whole
world disappears"
(Forever Fades Away, Tiger Army)
PSA: You never know where or when nostalgia may happen to
you, so always be prepared to quell the OH SHI- with a few deep breaths of
things far gone, and also make time to languish in the warmth of positive past
reflection, being happy just to have lived a life worth remembering.
"In fact we
didn't know what we were doing half of the time
We were so sure of
ourselves and drove a long way through life
Memories make me
want to go back there, back there"
(Memories [how perfect], Weezer)
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